May 15th, 2014
One Day Until The Cherry Street House Auction
We are one day and 5 hours away from an answer. It has been a very growing month as I wait for a deadline/answer about whether or not we will be moving a house this summer. It isn't just, “moving a House,” it's receiving a huge blessing of a home. Even as I write this I want to put, if we get it, but feel quiet strongly that God did speak to me this house.
So that brings me to the “growing month” part of this story. I drove by the Cherry Street House a few months ago and had this overwhelming sense of Gods love for me and that He was going to give me this home. As I sat crying in my car, I had no idea how much this adventure was going to grow my faith.
I had this intimate time where my Father in Heaven spoke to me, and then came the doubt. I am in charge of leading a Moms group this year (another character building exercise from God), so I get to lead our book discussion days. We are reading The Pursuit of God by A. W. Tozer, and our chapter was about God Speaking to us. Cool, right!?!
I don't know about you, but I have a hard time feeling significant enough to have a conversation with God. I mean, He is God. He has a lot more important things to do than to talk to me. On the week I am to share this chapter, as I am procrastination preparing for a public speaking role that I swore I would never do, I feel the Holy Spirits nudging me toward Him. Facebook, pinterest, gmail, and craiglist have sucked the minutes and hours away, and now I click on my devotion for the day.
Tozer on Leadership - Monday, April 14, 2014Prayer: Teach Me to Listen
Now the Lord came and stood and called as at other times, "Samuel! Samuel!" And Samuel answered, "Speak, for Your servant hears." --1 Samuel 3:10
Lord, teach me to listen. The times are noisy and my ears are weary with the thousand raucous sounds which continuously assault them. Give me the spirit of the boy Samuel when he said to Thee, "Speak, for thy servant heareth." Let me hear Thee speaking in my heart. Let me get used to the sound of Thy voice, that its tones may be familiar when the sounds of earth die away and the only sound will be the music of Thy speaking voice. Amen. The Pursuit of God, pp. 82-83"Speak, for Thy servant heareth. Amen."
This is the very excerpt from the book I am procrastinating reading! Crazy, wait, not crazy, amazing God! My faith is changed, and it doesn't stop there because He is doing a work in me and that work in me will not stop till I am face to face with Him in Heaven.
Over the course of the next few days, I know the Holy Spirit is telling me to study faith. Here is what I have been studying for 39 days now (yes I know it has been 39 days because I am crazy and wrote it down on the calendar). These are my verses. They are on 3x5 cards in my purse
"So then Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God."
Romans 10:7
"For we walk by Faith, not my sight."
2 Corinthians 5:7
"Let Love and Faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart."
Proverbs 3:3
"Look to Jesus the author and finisher of our Faith, for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising shame, and is at the right hand of the throne of God."
Hebrews 12:2
"That the trial of your Faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls."
1 Peter 1:7-9
It has been a month since my Moms Group talked about God speaking to us, and guess what our chapter is about this week... You guessed it, FAITH. Being the head case that I am after the last chapter discussion, I copied every bible devotion from my devotion website to show my friends that not once since has my devotion been an excerpt from A. W. Tozer's The Pursuit of God.
God spoke to me that day, and He is speaking to me even now. I hope this is an encouragement to you that this God that created us does care, and He does love us. It might all seem like coincidence to you, but I have faith that my Creator loves me and wants a real tangible relationship with me. All of my unbelief, shortcomings, imperfectness, and total unworthiness of His love don't get in the way.